COME AGAIN?!

So we were 'in' for the test results today, all our blood tests are normal and as expected, and my semen tests read as before, lowcount, but still some with motility and 'gradeable'. It seems though my limited supply of swimmers has got to be backed up soon, or 'banked' though, to keep a strong supply on board in case the aging process intervenes to make the rest of my crew not ready for the party. It's not an easy thing to talk about male infertility, you hope you will always be Mister Sharpshooter, ready to go at a moment's notice, so it's always more than just a kick to the ego.
This will though require a few visits to the NHS sponsored private masturbation room at the clinic. You are sent to the room, with a selection of NHS supplied magazines and DVD's. Then when you're done, it's time to drop your takings super fresh style in the container provided, to the collection section:). And that is really all my role in the process...except it's not really.
I want to be the strongest rock emotionally for the missus and it's vital, but I can't pretend that the infertility treatment process hasn't ripped my heart out, stuck it back, ripped out, stuck it back again. We have had to battle every step of the way to even get this treatment, and the fact that we have had to be funded every time has added to the stress, we have been blocked more times than supported, and we do not have the money resources to pay for the treatment ourselves, as the cost is between £5,000 or £6,000 per cycle of treatment. Me and Nat were both made redundant last year just when we were beginning to get ourselves into a financially stable situation.We're not alone in that I know very well, and yet you still have to hear middle and upper class health professionals, local funding commissions, etc etc make judgements on whether you have the right to initiate life on the basis of finance. Two words to that I think, and did not many working class people struggle to ensure free a health service for all with the NHS? That is a right worth preserving, our need for this treatment should be at equal level to other serious health care provision, it should not have to be a choice between providing this or that treatment at the expense of someone else's life or health condition. D. 13.6.2013.